My world

What would the world be without out you or me
what would the world be if i lived so freely
what would the world be if i had no bounds
what would the world be if i had no ups and downs

What would the world be to me,.... it be peace without insanity.

It would be something to look forward to everyday
something i would cherish and have no dismay
I would claim this world as my own
there would be no bars, no shingles that could hold a single bone
there would be no broken hearts, no women or men to shape and mold
because life is to grand and rich to have a cold hand to hold

Instead, I give life that hand to hold, let it teach me the dangers of love,
how to live with integrity and laugh at my flaws that I have yet to overcome.

In my world I..
live it
learn from it
laugh at it and overcome it.
There's much more that can be done but i still have time, i'm still young.

3 Month Victory

I’ve made it. It feels so good to be able to say no and have no desire for it. You may be asking what is “IT!” Well “IT” is sex. No has become the new YES for me. This has been one of the biggest accomplishments this summer. I finally have control once again. Now the task is not fully completed. I must be able to stay in control until I am married and willing to give my gift to the well deserved man that has made a vow to me. Only then will the task be complete.

Time Is Running Short

As I sit and reminisce all the fun I had freshman year, I count down how many days I have left to continue my education at Spelman College. I’m trying to continue to have faith and pray to the lord. Reality is over powering my faith. I started losing myself . Just totally giving up and throwing in the towel but that’s not me. That’s not J’nae. I never give up. I mean why give up now when he’s gotten me this far in life. Im to busy trying to see my debt cleared instead of believing it. The word says you must truly believe first. Then it will happen in the flesh. Seek by faith and not by sight. I want to thank all my friends that have prayed for me and your effort in trying to help me return back to school. I miss you guys soooo much.

You don't love me

You love me .. you love me not … you love me … you love me not
You say you love me but you don’t.
How many times are you going to say I love you in vein.
How many times do you want to feel the pain. The pain from an angry heart
The pain that leaves you feeling like a million darts,….. stabbing you ….repeatedly from the words that I’ve expressed to you.. From words that are cold and heartless but yet true.

How can you say you love me and not know why you love me.
Stop telling me you love me just because you want to make up for what you did in the past.
Stop telling me love me because you have strong feelings for me but yet you couldn’t tell me what my favorite color is.
I’m tired of hearing the words I love you said to me in vein. It means nothing if it’s not truly coming from the heart.

Love has taught me a great deal in life. Depicting true love from just the word was just the beginning.

Where I stand as a Spelmanite ,Fall 2010

So ive decided that this year is going to be my year of change. Last year I was more on chill mode and just exploring my options,taking notes for future references.
After analyzing what each organization or club does, i have made the decision that im going to join pulse, do a lot of volunteering & peer helping with teenage girls and mainly just making my self known around campus( aka Networking. I want to be an active member of a church, sing in the choir, go to bible study, fast, pray ect., My goal of getting a 4.0 each semester remains the same and is my top priority along with getting scholarships and internship for the summer.


I also have made a list of the things that I am restricting myself from:

1. Sex
2. partying all the time
3. Drinking
4. texting while trying do constructive things
5. Making a lot of social visit/ fun time
6. Sleeping all day
7. Relationships

What a great day =)

Omg I can’t belive I’m blogging .. hehehe hahahaha…YES
It’s been a long time since I expressed myself. It seems like, ever since I got this new part time job I’ve cut the internet out of my everyday life. I only get on facebook maybe twice a week. I haven’t made a tweet or a blog and this pass Sunday was my first time going back in about a month. After that Sunday I realized that my whole social life has went down the drain. I haven’t gone out to the club in about 2 weeks. =/. But that’s not the important thing, the important thing is that I’m blogging again…

Hip Hip Hurrayyyyyyy for J’Nae =).
I like when I do little small things such as blogging that make my day.

Word of the day

subtilize \SUHT-l-ahyz\ , verb;
1.
To make (the mind, senses, etc.) keen or discerning.
2.
To elevate in character.
3.
To make thin, rare, or more fluid or volatile; refine.