Being a Big Sister

I feel like a role model. Every time I talk to Jeff cousin Ke’shawna aka my cousin I feel like im a big sister to her. I tend to be peoples listening tool. I notice that a lot of people tend to talk to me because they trust me. They feel that I am the person that they can come talk to when their depressed, confused, going through a struggle etc. It makes me feel good about myself. It makes me feel important, like I’m actually making some type of mark in life. Being an only child I had no one to talk to when I was growing up. I had no one to express my feelings to, so I would write in journals. When I would write I could never continuously keep writing in it everyday I only wrote in it when problems aroused in my life. I can just think back like it was yesterday, when I would get mad at my mom. I would sit there in my room just talking to my self like “oooo I can’t stand her, I wish I didn’t live here”. But never did I have somebody to express myself to, somebody that can give me advice or lead me in the right direction. When I talk to my cousin (Ke’Shawna) I feel like a big sister to her. Guiding her in the right direction, giving her someone she can trust, and express her true feelings to. I feel like a Hero.